Balancing Act

It has been such a long time since my last post, it almost felt like I was never going to come back. Almost. Life has this way of sweeping you up, like a tornado, and dropping you off somewhere else, somewhere unrecognizable. Like a dream, reality can be familiar and strange, co-existing somewhere in between. Recently I've spent a lot of energy self coaching. I opened myself up in ways I never imagined I would- starting a new practice, changing careers, planning a wedding, joining a volunteer organization and pursuing further education. The result is too many to-do lists, moments of questioning my abilities, and a lot of emails. Ultimately, it has opened my boundaries to new possibilities. I am open and I am learning something new about the world every day. So much of my journey has been looking deep inside myself that the refreshing quest to find how best I can serve has been an exciting personal movement filled with anticipation. I wonder how much I can truly take on and how much I can let go. And I find myself re-evaluating my priorities and I know now, like I never did before, when I am not in balance. It is a new feeling, to be so sensitized to this knowledge of my inner self. To be constantly aware, to be able to correctly identify an emotion, to know my limits-it is a phenomenal discovery. The next step, the opportunity to self-correct, is what I look forward to exploring. It will not be easy, not now that I invited this into my life, to say no. It will not be easy, now that expectations are set, to gently lay them back down. Still, it is more difficult to be untrue to myself, and suffering through painful experiences for the sake of propriety is no longer an option. So, yes, I have been a long time gone. But I think about this journey often. And I feel a sweet relief knowing that I am finding my equilibrium simply through expressing my awareness of imbalance. And that is how it is done.