Is It Now Yet?

I find myself chasing my thoughts into tomorrow instead of taking the moment in, with each breath. I used to be a past kind of girl- going over that which happened and then turning it over and over until I had either made sense of it, or uncovered more memories that complicated it even more. Over the past year, I have made great peace with my past, and rarely spend time anymore delving into it. I have learned that the past is simply a trap in which I fall, one in which I can not become the woman I intend to be because I am too focused on the girl I was. In thinking of the past, I find its only use is to understand it, so I can understand the reasons why I do things in the present. All in all, I tend to live with a great saying I heard once "the past is a different country..they do things differently there". Ironically, my mind now catapults me into the future-- the what ifs of life that can turn a perfectly great moment into a mind fluttering, thought provoking race to nowhere. Whereas I once had a handle on what my days would look like, and life no longer held any surprise, the past was a warm, if sometimes scalding, blanket of memories I could always snuggle up to, and one that held endless possibilities of discovery. Now my life has changed drastically and I have no idea what tomorrow is supposed to look like, and the uncertainty of the future has me questioning everything, and the pit in my stomach that was once regret has settled in as apprehension. In exploring these feelings within myself, I find even more evidence of how much our outside circumstances leave us vulnerable- like a garden that is exposed to the slightest change in temperature and moisture that means the difference between growth or death. The opportunity here is to, metaphorically, of course, find my own endless source of light and water. Left to the outside forces of life, I will always topple in the winds of change. Exposed to the harsh elements of things that do not go my way or words that pierce my heart, I fall into old habits of what ifs.

There are many techniques that can be incorporated for in the moment living. One that I have had a great breakthrough with lately is harnessing your power. I used to believe that if I wanted something to happen, I would have to share it with everyone, thereby getting my message to the universe. If you believe that your thoughts and words are really energy, then you can see how this might be a challenge as you are essentially giving it away. And if someone does not reciprocate your feelings, or if they do not share your desires, it can be very depleting. The universe is very good at listening, and I know now that if I channel my thoughts as intentions of pure energy, I can be very effective without losing one bit of my power. The need to share of ourselves can be a very human and beautiful thing, as long as we are sharing that which we hold in complete confidence and knowing. If we turn to others to hear their opinion or gain their approval (even on a subconscious level) we will be knocked down very easily. When we are certain and steadfast in our path, the potential to be in the moment is so incredibly powerful. If you are not worrying about the future, or what someone is going to say, or has said in the past, then it is so much easier to be present, and calm, and at peace.

Harness your power intentionally. Do not feel it is ever your obligation to confess your deepest desires and, by all means, if you want to share it, sing it loud and sing it proud. In reserving your desires for yourself, your mind becomes attached to the universal source, a quiet place of power that can only root you deeper into yourself and the divinity that is now.